An Introduction

This is just a blog to get all my depressed feelings out in the open world.

I need some outlet to get rid of it!

I can't go on like this for much longer. I'm in a job I hate, still live with my parents whom I also near enough hate for the way they treat me. You know the whole father son thing of getting your first car. Well, needless to say that never happened with me. I passed my test 3rd time lucky, but no father/son bonding like this ever took place, this was 3 years ago.

My younger brother, however, passed his test first time round, and so mummy and daddy dearest go out and get him his first car and pay for his insurance. When they told me they had got him a car, I felt like I had been stabbed through the heart, let alone the back!

Add to the fact that I am a loner with no friends or people who could give two shits about me, I think this says it all. At 20 years of age, I think I am entitled to jack my dead end job in, without my shitty parents telling me they'll kick me out if I do. Well fuck them! They let that tosser of a brother of mine at 17 years of age do what he likes, and let him talk to me like shit infront of other family members, with no intervention.

No one's ever shown an interest in me, is it because I'm ugly and wear glasses? I shoudn't need any tosser to get me a car, but they've made me into the confidence lacking wreck that I am by constantly putting me down and telling me I'm no good.

My job's as equally depressing as these twats are. I seem to be working 7/7 well 6/7 at the moment if I'm truthful, whereas other employees keep getting there 3 days of a week as so are working 4/7.

I mean, for example, I haven't had a day off since last Tuesday 20th Nov. I had a day off today, and now I'm back to the shithole tomorrow until Thursday. Let alone I'm not getting paid for this. I'm owed it! WHAT A CROCK. If I was a normal person, I wouldn't stand for this, what is wrong with me? I just keep putting a front on, but I'm cutting up inside.

I've no friends, so no social life, no love interest, no one that takes an interest in me, the people that do just treat me like a freak. So where do I go from here?